Moving to China

If not everyone knows by now I am going to China next month! Crazy I know but an experience I have been waiting for all my life. The closer it gets however the sadder I seem to feel. I start looking at my life and loving certain aspects of it. I just quit my job and from my suprise it was very difficult. I met some of the greatest people in there, not including patients :) The friends I have made I will truely charish forever. They seemed to think I was funny which made my life a whole lot easier, and there were those occasional guys that found me attractive. (Once again not including patients) I just felt comfortable and really was finding out who I was. It was sad to say my goodbyes to those that made my life that much greater.

Also I love where I live. My apartment may be the crappiest apartment in Salt lake but its mine and I love it. The fact that I can't find a happy medium of temperature so I am either dying of heat or freezing with hypothermia but it keeps my life a little more interesting. And I love the neighbors right below me that think that their cigarette smoke wont seep up though the vents or that I can't hear them playing their drums and guitars at all hours of the night. But I love it still cause its mine. I love that I can drive a few blocks down the road and be in the smack middle of downtown salt lake city where I can enjoy the view of the temple or go enjoy a nice stroll in pioneer park where the bums have decided to claim their territory. I love the fact that we have a professional basketball team and that we are frequent attenders. Watching drunk people make a fool of themselves can make anyone's night. So once again it's perfect. I will indeed miss my beautiful city.

I will miss Wayne. When I think of Salt Lake I mostly think of him and leaving him here. I'll miss his great big smile and his comments when he makes fun of me. I'll miss him yelling at his dog for doing absolutely nothing. I'll miss him having to always pretend like everything's his fault just because he knows he can't win:) No that's not entirely true. I'll miss having wars where I'm grabbing his nipples and him touching my bellybutton. (Maybe I can do without that) I'll just miss him in general. But I love the fact that he is excited for me to go to China cause he knows this is what I need more than anything. And I LOVE that we aren't even allowed to talk about me going to china cause it only makes him sad. I'll miss Wayne telling me that he loves me. I'll just miss him all together.

This isn't the first time that I've packed up and moved away so I know that I can do it and I know it will only help me. So wish me luck write me while I am away!