I officially have a month left of my job. If you didn't know, Wayne and I are moving to St. George so we both have to leave our jobs. Honestly, I am sad to go just because I will miss not knowing what is going on in these kids lives. Granted, they are mean little devil children, but I love them. Today they had a writing assignment, "Who loves me" A simple paper really, and a way for them to think about the positive sides of their lives. We have a new kid whos name I will call ah.... Bob. Bob came from a reservation. He is only 12 years old. A couple years ago, his parents abandoned him. THey just got up and left. I couldn't imagine being 10 or so and having NO ONE there for me. Anyway, he lived on his own for a couple years, got into drugs, and alcohol. Back to this paper.... every paper I read was actually great. They all discussed how their parents, grandparents, siblings, and pets loved them. When I came across "Bob's" paper I heart just dropped.
"Nobody loves me. Because I am so flippin stupid, ugly troblesome. I am a big time lier, I steal, smoke, drink. I'm Retarded."
Now i know I dont know everything but "Bob" but for him to believe that no one loves him breaks my heart. Deep down I hate his parents for walking out on their child, leaving him with nothing, and leaving him with the the thought he isn't loved. I know I write these depressing blogs sometimes but it's only because I feel we are sometimes too hard on ourselves, and we need to be better at showing our love for each other.
I LOVE that I have been married for over a year now, and a day has not gone by where Wayne has not said those three words. Even if I'm a pain in the butt, grumpy, selfish, emotional wreck!!! He still says, I Love you! Anyway, theres my two sense for the day.
On a brighter note, last night was my LAST CLASS!!!! WOO HOO! I walk next friday! Can't believe it!
5 comments:
Oh that is so sad about "bob!" When I was student teaching, it was hard leaving-just wondering who these kids will become and where their lives will take them. Some of them you just want to adopt and give a better life! What did you get your degree in?
I do have a hard time with how the world is in those ways with parents abandoning or neglecting their children. It breaks my heart too. Poor kid.
Poor Bob... I can't imagine anyone wanting to leave their child. What is wrong with some of the people in this world?!?!
ps congrats on graduating and good luck with the movie... wish you were moving closer to Rexburg rather than farther!!
Girl... you're one tuff cookie. You're certainly taking on a hard career.
What the HEY!? I thought you were moving to ARIZONA. Pfff. St. George. Is this going to be a forever typw move, or are you still considering Flagstaff someday?
I'd like to see some conclusion here... Did you try to cheer Bob up, and give him encouragement? Or did you just grade the paper and not even talk to him about it?
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